Unselfish

Before I even open
my eyes, I’ve fallen short and,
confusion and delusion is caving in and filling in
and I'm,Living in this world I am foreign,
all I though my life’s forgotten,
I forgot that I belong to You I trust in.

You carried the whole world for me,
You shed Your blood, You lived and died for me.
You came to the world to save me,
You sent Your Son, You gave it all for me.

I’ve given up, I gave my life to
Serving You and living for You,
compassion and Your love is pouring in and showing me what is,
You are the only way in,
the only place to be in,
You made for us to be with You forever.

You carried the whole world for me,
You shed Your blood, You lived and died for me.
You came to the world to save me,
You sent Your Son, You gave it all for me.

My Saving Grace

2 days ago 7 o’clock
I realized that I should have stopped
taking over my life as I like
when everything is falling apart.
You’ve let me see what I couldn’t be
You set me free and I agree
You are the one that I need
Now I believe.

I’ll never know if I’ll never go
‘cause You alone the One who knows
the only One I trust is my Fortress
You light my life You gave me peace.
You comfort me, You’ve given me
the only gift of eternity
now I can feel Your embrace
I wanna see Your face.

Everything happens, everything falls in place
all you have to do is call His name…

You are my Savior, You are my Grace,
my only Redeemer, the only One I praise…

my Saving Grace…

Under His Wings

In life there are a lot of ups and downs,
winning and losing to temptations and deceptions
livin’ our life as if we know our own reasons,
stumbling over doesn’t mean that its over…

I feel so safe…

I’ll feel ashamed, if I’ll loose to the devil’s game,
but don’t worry, hold His hands it’ll be easy.
you will find comfort, our enemies will falter,
trusting and believing that He’ll do everything…

I’m under, under His wings
I’m under, under His wings.

… I feel so safe.

There will come a time that you will be tested,
everything’s blurry all your senses are turning.
don’t be afraid even though the place is eerie,
trusting and believing that He’ll do everything…

I’m under, under His wings
I’m under, under His wings.

… I feel so safe.
… I feel so safe.

No tree
Listen to this...

A storm passed by the life of a bird, a bird that never knew his plans will be destroyed along with his fruit bearing tree. The storm passed and left him helpless and drained. No fruit, no food, and nothing on his tree. Frustrated he may seem he tried to look for sources resembling his lost tree. Then along came the wind. Now this bird had the chance to travel from place to place carried by the wind that came across the state. Riding with the wind he seeks the tree that will provide. The wind you may not see in the sky but it brought happiness and fulfillment to this bird’s desire. Now the flock that didn’t share the same fate as his, thinks that he has left and gone happy with the wind. What they don’t know is this bird is doing his best to have his life back again and be part of the flock again. Now is it the bird’s mistake? When the storm gave him this fate? And then they speak of what they don’t understand …

After all

Can’t you feel the world is moving faster now
Stop and take a moment to look what's around you
Leaves are falling from the winter trees and rain is pouring
Why do people need to leave to face a new beginning?

My world is falling down
My life is caving in
I want to be part of your life again

Why won’t you believe me now?
I’m trying to change somehow
I never had the chance to reason why
Now I lost my life and wonder why
I left you alone in the ground

I admit that I’m afraid of my own shadow
I’m tired of cleaning all the pain inside
Let’s stop and talk about the things that happened in the past
Removing all the pain and sorrows tonight

in the middle of the field

A fire within is burning but the warmth of your embrace is missing. As I envision looking at your eyes I suffer with pain of not seeing you. I feel you as I imagine running my fingers down your neck from the back of your head slowly touching your ears and as I reach your unblemished soft tan skin. Ever since I left your side and as I remember your lovely hazel eyes, I cant stop but think on the time we spent where we felt like we were in a castle up in the sky. While I hold on to the memories of your embrace and as I sense your blissful scent my mind cant help it but force my eyes to close and help us unite through mind's eye. My body cannot evade this affection that grew like a wild flower in the field of grass that flourished and be an evidence of care and love from the warmth of you embrace. Now I can’t wait to be with you and show you the love that grew from within that was showered by the passion from your kindness. I have waited this long but now regret has covered my emotions for you have found the one that would be that person I sought to be.

The flower that remains in the middle of the field has been forgotten and weeds has now enclosed the essence of being there. At this time I remain alone surrounded by pain, waiting for the one that would take it all away and bring back the beauty of that flower that would grow and will bring love to the one who took all the pain away.

It's Time...

A long time has past since I wrote this way; my feelings and emotions seem to be loosing its way. I tried to hide, I tried to pray… but now it seems that I’m really falling away. We tried to talk our differences; we even said we would change, but what now? Have we prevailed or even went on our way? The night you said the trees are going stiff and the fruits are turning dry, the love, the sweetness, these words where we all relied, has now turned against us and betrayed the happiness we thought would keep the fire alive. Now the fire that made us warm is slowly turning into ice. A prison made of ice now holds the love that kept us alive, a prison that keeps the fire raging within that made my heart cold and never touch love again. The fields of grass where flowers bloom and the scent of summer roams, now the land has turned into a ground of hate where nothing but rocks and soil remains while the winter breeze releases its passion for pain.

Now the time has come for me to say that even though the pain remains, a feeling like ours will never be thrown away. Engraved within my soul the love and joy we shared would remain the same…

a letter to them...

If you are to disown me, so be it… but please hear me say this words if you would permit...

I don’t have the face to display, nor the ability to speak of the words that I am about to convey. With this gift of words that has been given to me, I just hope that you might forgive me. I have used my mind on thinking what is right, using this as I evaluated my own meaning of life not knowing that I can never see the true meaning of life. Walking through the path I know, I realize the path I know is a place where I don’t want go. The problem is I think too much, too much of equality parse that have ruin my values in life. Now I have to know that reality bites. As I go on further, I learn to trust my heart, my heart that is filled with emotion, passion and infatuation. At this point of time I have learned that these is the stage where you’re spirit shouts out to be free. All I can hear is freedom and justice. Freedom! Justice! Right! Shouting at the top of my youthful voice I cry out these words, not knowing the reasons beyond that point. I thought that you can never give what you can never have, but I realize that you are right when you said give and don’t expect that you’ll receive. Now I agree that I can never be, the person that you really wanted me to be. Harsh words cam out of my mouth, word for word I wish that it would all be wiped out but some things can never be out done nor be removed from our mind. I should have listen, I should have done, these words of wisdom that you have ask me to understand. But what can I do now… the damage has been done…

Now I ask forgiveness for what I have done, I felt your sorrow, I felt your distress. All I want now is for you to have your mind be at rest. So I ask you now… I am sorry… for your own good… disown me now…

Proverbs 10:19
"When words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise."

Proverbs 12:18
"Reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing."

Proverbs 17:28"
Even a fool is thought wise if he keeps silent,and discerning if he holds his tongue."

Proverbs 15:1
"A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger."

why can't i be wiser...